The Defiant Ones
Tarot for Real Life
Reflections from a Reader's Table
by Ruby Tuesday

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This is almost always a man. He arrives at your table, sits down, leans back, folds his arms, and glares at you with anger and suspicion. Whether he's dressed in a business suit or casual clothes, he is also wrapped in a blend of contempt and wariness, flavored with a sad self-ridicule, all of it layered around him so thick you could probably feel the texture -- if he let you reach out to him and touch. If he let you get that close.
He reminds me of a police detective who is sure he's nailed you for a crime that will put him in the headlines and put you away for life. The clenched jaw and thin line of his lips tells you (screams at you!!) that he's going to tell you absolutely nothing about himself. He figures it's your job to tell him. He's not going to do one thing to make it easy. He won't even provide you with an opening question if he can help it.
I have honest-to-God had more than one Defiant snarl at me, from behind an executioner's smile: "If you're the psychic, you should already know why I'm here." The remark always sours the atmosphere around you even more (as if that's possible!!) ... because as far as he's concerned, the fact you've asked him anything just confirmed the nasty things he believes about you and all your kind. ("Your kind" ... yes, I've heard those words, too ... from Defiant Ones with axes to grind.)
When you ask what he would like to examine today, he snaps something like, "Tell me about money." ... or maybe just "relationships." And then it's your turn to talk ... and you'd better be damn good and quick about it, because if every word out of your mouth isn't pure gold and astonishing, it will just prove what he clearly thinks: that you're a conniving fraud, the Tarot is a bunch of hooey, and only a fool would come to a reader thinking anything else.
He gives you no direction, no encouragement, no feedback of any kind. He's not wasting any milk of human kindness on you, that's for sure. He's come to be amazed -- if you have gifts that can do that. (Which you probably don't; certainly not at that red hot moment. This is an absolutely poisonous climate in which to try to do a reading. Every speck of sensitivity you have is being saturated with his negative "vibes" ... and your intuition -- which exists to take care of you and warn you of danger, is blaring at you non-stop to get out of this situation and get away from this guy. Who in the world can give a decent reading with this chaos going on?)
If you do manage to tell him something amazing -- or even anything of value, you'll never know. He'll never tell you. He sits out the reading mostly in silence, glowering at the cards you lay down, answering you with grunts, one word replies, and shrugs. He has all the animation and vitality of a zombie. In the time you spend together he may be trying to figure out your "angle" with far more attention than he is paying to anything you have to say.

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When his time is up, you can clearly tell you haven't hit on nearly enough points to satisfy whatever he had in mind -- or maybe you haven't hit on the one essential point he oh-so-much wanted you to address -- but would never, ever tell. Not under torture; not in a million years. You wonder if he's ever broached the subject -- whatever it is -- out loud with anyone. And you hope for his sake, somewhere, somehow, he's at least managed to get that far. Human souls just weren't meant to carry such unrelieved pain forever.
He pays you with less enthusiasm than he would show paying a hefty traffic fine. He walks away, still wrapped in his secrets, his skepticism, his self-criticism ... and his pain. Honest to God, I have to wonder what was happening in his life that left him desperate enough to consult a reader in the first place. And I wish I knew if I'd said anything that helped. I wish there were enough magic in a hug that it could start to heal whatever is eating him raw -- because if I believed in that kind of miracle for him, I'd chase him down and hug him quick -- in spite of himself.
But maybe my own faith is weak. Faith in myself. Faith in the power of anonymous, unsolicited, unexpected love. Because I let them go ... The Defiant Ones ... watching usually until they disappear, turn the corner ... out of sight. I send silent blessings after them -- to maybe do the work that never had a chance to get started here. And then I try to shake off the sludge they left behind. Maybe I stand up and walk around a few minutes myself -- or go wash my hands ... that ironic, symbolic ritual -- and believe me, I recognize that when it happens.
My Inner spiritual Advisor reminds me this transaction is a mirror of something I need to face in me. My own doubts, maybe. My own prejudices and skeptical regard for anything unfamiliar and "too weird." Some inner self of mine shrouded in isolation and agony -- and not trusting anyone -- even me -- enough to speak the very words that might set him (her?) free. For days I'll try to interpret the symbols, dissect the transaction, remember every nuance of the exchange between us -- and finally let it go.
If I helped or healed at all -- him or me or both -- I'll never see him again in whatever new body or disguise he might decide to adopt next time. It will all fade except for the occasional memory -- and the Defiant One and I will both go on to whatever comes next in our separate lives -- because there is always another set of lessons, another hill to climb, another challenge to define and conquer. And if what happened between us didn't do it -- whatever "it" is supposed to be, I know this for certain ... he'll be back.
(c) 2008 Ruby Tuesday and Enchanted Spirit, Inc., All rights reserved.

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